Every now and then I retake the Myers-Briggs Type Indicator (MBTI) test just to “check the temperature”, so to speak. I don’t believe in basing my actions on a label, but instead on using labels to determine what my personality is like at any give time. I do think that personality changes over time…I think that mood and personality are like weather and climate. One is short term, the other long term.
Anyway, I have taken several tests recently that put me in the INFJ category instead of INFP. I’ve been INFP for a long time, so this recent change makes me wonder what the reason is. The P and J stand for Perceiving and Judging, and according to the Myers & Briggs Foundation:
This fourth preference pair describes how you like to live your outer life–what are the behaviors others tend to see? Do you prefer a more structured and decided lifestyle (Judging) or a more flexible and adaptable lifestyle (Perceiving)? This preference may also be thought of as your orientation to the outer world.
Sometimes people feel they have both. That is true. The J or P preference only tells which preference the person extraverts. One person may feel very orderly/structured (J) on the inside, yet their outer life looks spontaneous and adaptable (P). Another person may feel very curious and open-ended (P) in their inner world, yet their outer life looks more structured or decided (J).
That makes some sense, I guess. It’s not so much how I feel about my order/structure or open-endedness, it’s about what the outside world sees. And this seems to indicate that over time, the outside world has begun to see more of an orderly/structured Doug than the curious and open-ended Doug. The reasons for this may be many, but it’s very possible that recent frustrations about a lack of planning on certain projects has pushed me over to the J side. When planning and implementing projects – technology projects, specifically – I look for clear project management guidelines to follow. This includes setting a vision, clear objectives and goals, and then establishing milestones, accountability, deadlines, etc. While I still have many P traits, the world sees me as more of a planner than in the past.
I don’t know if that’s necessarily good or bad, but it’s worth putting some more thought into.
Spent some time over at Webflow messing around with their unique website designer. I like the idea…I like it a lot. But it’s just not intuitive enough for me. Granted, I may be biased toward WordPress because I’ve been using it for so long, but there’s something so comforting about how simple and user-friendly and powerful the WordPress CMS is. I’ll keep dabbling, but I don’t see myself switching over to Webflow exclusively anytime soon.
I’ve been thinking a lot about my goals in life. It seems like a lot of people are in the same boat as me – they feel dissatisfied at work or school or home because their perceive their actions to lack meaning or purpose, and there’s a whole galaxy of memes and motivational posters about taking the plunge and chasing your dreams and all that stuff. I like the idea, but the cautious side of me knows that it’s not all roses and rainbows for people who drop whatever stability they have in life and go after what they “really want”. So I keep doing what I’ve been doing, and keep wishing that some opportunities would open up.
And, of course, I also find myself questioning whether or not my feeling of meaninglessness is accurate. Maybe what I do does make a difference, it just doesn’t feel like it? I don’t know.
I was thinking about my perfect job this evening and I kept coming back to digital literacy. It’s what I know best. It’s what I do. I am digitally literate in the sense that as new technologies emerge, I’m out there gathering information and trying things out and considering the long-term consequences of technological change and disruption in a variety of industries. I search for jobs that involve digital literacy and I find a lot of adult education stuff, some journalistic endeavors, and lots of teaching and librarian positions. Hmmm.
If you happen to be reading this and you are aware of digital literacy jobs, let me know!
I’m terrible at finding the right words to describe things. Every now and then I find somebody else’s words and, well, I just have to steal them.
This evening I found this job description and I think it describes the work that I would like to do:
“help clients envision their future, as well as align business and technology to create new possibilities, develop the strategies and plans to achieve those possibilities, and manage the change as the vision is implemented”